CT Results

I can not even begin to explain the journey that this has been. I had a CT scan on Tuesday to check for any regrowth or spread of the nasty cancer. Going into the scan I felt like my whole life was riding on it. I didn't realize how much I want to do and have going for me right now until I am faced with the possibility of getting it all taken away. I was SO anxious in the days leading up to the scan. I got it all done...which is a miserable process. You have to fast, drink this NASTY goop that they call a smoothy...its filled with dye. Then you have to have an IV put in (I somehow always end up with the crappy IV person who misses before getting it). Then you lay on the CT bed and the zoom you in and take a few pics. Then they inject this iodine dye and oh my goodness it is bizarre! It makes you feel like you are having a hot flash, sucking on a bucket of pennies, and peeing your pants all at the same time. They take the pictures then you are done. And you get to wait. No one describes waiting better than Dr. Seuss in "Oh, the places you will go."
"Waiting for a train to go or a bus to come, or a plane to go or the mail to coem, or the rain to go or the phone to ring, or the snow to snow or waiting around for Yes or No or waiting for thier hair to grow. Everyone is just waiting."
In my anxiety Jeremy went down to the hospital and got the report for the CT. We didn't understand all of it and again had to wait for the doctor to call. She did and said "Its clear."
I was SOOOOOO relieved! Two words changed my life for the better in one instant.