Thoughts...

I am about to turn twenty six next week. I am contmplating how entirely old I feel. Being around kids who were born the year I graduated from high school makes me feel really old! I can't believe how much I have experienced in life up to this point. Its amazing really...how much there still is to do...hmmmm
Jeremy and I are doing pretty well. After the bomb shell news of Jeremy's parents getting divorced settled in (it still is) we started to really feel like Woodland Park is no longer the best place for us. We love our jobs we love how beautiful it is but this past year put such a black mark on this place. We are so ready for a change. We looked into moving to Alaska, and ruled it out because of no sunlight...yikes. Then we looked into a program that would take us to Antarctica (whats with the poles? and ice? ask Jer) but they wouldn't take me because of the cancer stuff. So then we started to think about what we want most...we want to be closer to our friends, family, and a church that we love. We want to move back to Denver.
Too bad its pretty crappy timing for that. The economy is terrible. We are looking and hoping that something will open up but yet again God has us in this limbo place where we don't know where we are going. We feel like we are waiting for the next answer. Hoping that God will shed some light, show us where to step, but so far nothing.
Maybe its because we are looking in all the wrong places? Who knows?

Oh and I went back to masters classes mostly because I wanted it to look good on my resume but I took on way too much and have been drowning in the work load. I am thankful each time I look at my classes though...I am thankful that I can even do it again. Amazing how God gives things back to us...

In the meantime...I got a call from my oncologists office reminding me that I need to get my next CT scan ASAP. I am dreading it. I know I should be one of those wonderful people who feels no fear, has no anxiety, and is totaly confident that God wouldn't do that to me again....but I am not one of those people. I am sure the day I go in for the scan I will be so nervous I will be sweating bullets. I know I have no control over what they do or don't find but I can't help but wonder. But it doesn't do any good to worry so until that day comes... I am going to try to ignore that reality in my life, turn 26, and pretend like I can eat whatever I want to for now...blissful ignorance. Maybe I'll get that tatoo I've been wanting...
This weekend we are going to Durango with my family for 4 days. My parents got us all a condo for the weekend. I am sure we will have lots of stories and pictures when we get back! Until then...